My Life’s Sweetest SABLAY 🌻

It’s the busiest time ever so I can’t find the time to write a blog post regarding my college graduation. I’ll be putting here instead all the messages and posts that I have posted on my social media accounts (i.e. Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram).

The Most-Awaited SABLAY Picture and Obligatory Message
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DELA CRUZ, JELYNDA URBANO
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Bachelor of Arts in Social Sciences (Economics – Political Science)
University of the Philippines – Baguio
Cum Laude
Elected Member, Pi Gamma Mu International Honor Society of Social Sciences
Elected Member, The International Honor Society of Phi Kappa Phi
UPB Economics Society, UP Subol Society Baguio Chapter
—————————————————–Puno man ng detours ang Road to Sablay ko, at least nakarating din ako sa patutunguhan ko kaya naman nais kong magpasalamat sa lahat ng taong naging parte ng paglalakbay na ito.

Sa mga magulang ko — Mama, Papa, maraming salamat sa lahat! Alam kong hindi sapat ang mga salitang ‘yan para sa lahat ng pagsasakripsyo ninyo para sa aming tatlo nina Jessa at Tristan (lalo na sa akin) kaya naman kahit na nakakatamad na madalas, pinagtiyagaan ko yung IBANG makakapal na readings (yung iba kasi tuluyan ko nang sinukuan at hinayaan lol) para mag-homerun para makasama ko kayo sa stage. Salamat sa pag-welcome sa akin sa bahay with open arms tuwing umuuwi ako kahit na alam kong minsan umay na kayo kasi weekly na lang akong bumaba.  Tapos pala, Ma, Pa, pag umuuwi ako minsan tapos sinasabi kong wala na akong class, ang totoo niyan umaabsent talaga ako. Minsan kasi nakakapagod na at gusto ko nalang talaga umuwi at huminga. Haha! Minsan din pala umaabsent talaga ako para matulog kasi “acads is life but sleep is lifer.”  Wala na hindi niyo na ako mapapagalitan kasi tapos na. Hahaha! Salamat hindi lang sa pagiging financier, pero sa lahat. Salamat sa pagtitiwala ninyo lagi sakin kahit minsan nakakapressure na kasi grabe tiwalang binibgay niyo (lol). Wala lahat ‘to kung wala kayo! Mahal ko kayo.  Two down. Si Tristan na lang! 

Salamat din sa mga kapatid kong (Jessa at Tristan) naging inspirasyon ko para makamit lahat ng ‘to. At kay Nanay Pat, sa mga pinsan, at sa mga tito at tita na naging katuwang ko at ng mga magulang ko para matapos ‘to, maraming salamat sainyong lahat! Hindi ko na kayo iisa-isahin kasi sobrang dami natin. Haha! I am so blessed for having all of you in my life. Salamat sa suporta ninyong lahat. I am sharing this achievement to all of you!

Sa mga kaibigan ko, lalo na dun sa mga totoong kaibigan ko talaga  (alam niyo na kung sinu-sino kayo), maraming salamat! Maraming salamat sa laging pagtitiwala at sa low-maintenanced na friendship, grade school friends! Kina Clyde at Rosalie na hindi nang-iwan nitong mga nakalipas na taon, thank you!  Sa college squad ko, Iris, Justine, Pia at Gleney, salamat kasi kayo yung naging karamay ko talaga sa loob ng apat na taon sa UP (at sa labas din haha). Kay Gino na naging karamay ko nitong nakaraang walong taon na, salamat dahil sa loob ng apat na taon sa Baguio, (hindi ka nang-iwan. Nagpaparinig ako Eyra at Eyna haha jk love you beshies!  Thank you din sainyo at kay Elaine kasi kayo kasama kong nag-adjust nung unang taon natin sa Baguio) nandyan ka para makakwentuhan at makausap lagi tungkol sa kahit na anong bagay o chika (mapa-Baguio o Pangasinan man ‘yan). Kay Melanie na first college friend ko at sa buong Econ Dos Bloc 2013, salamat sainyo! Ang saya niyo kasama! Mamimiss ko kayo!

Sa natatanging dalawang orgs ko, UPB Economics Society at UP Subol Society Baguio Chapter, maraming salamat sa oportunidad na ibinigay ninyo para makilala ko pa ang sarili ko. Ang saya maging parte ng pamilya niyo!

Sa mga naging propesor ko sa UP, lalong-lalo na sa mga propesor ng Soksay at Department of Economics and Political Science, maraming salamat po mga Ma’am at Sir! Iba kayo! Thank you for sharing your knowledge and life stories.

Sa lahat ng nagtiwala na kaya ko, maraming salamat sainyo!

Maraming salamat, UP!

At higit sa lahat, Papa God, sobrang thank You! Naging posible lahat ng to dahil Sa’yo! Indeed, To God Be All the Glory! 😇🙏💖
#HusayAtDangal 💖💖💖”

#OrgPubMats
To Econ Soc and Subol,
Maraming Salamat! 💙💙

 

SABLAY 2017 🌻: The Detours Brought Me Here
HIGHLIGHTS and MESSAGES

_DSC0376About My Graduation Look.
“Sabi ko nga, puno ng detours ang Road to Sablay ko. Ang hindi ko lang in-expect, sa mismong araw din pala ng pag-Sablay ko, may detour pa ring mangyayari. I wasn’t planning to wear this. I was going for a simple off-shoulder white dress but yea. Last minute changes happened. Another “detour” happened during my last day in college and once again, it turned out great! 🌻💕”

PS. Prepared ang beshy niyo pero na-late ako! As in legit na muntik na akong di gumraduate!!! Last day as a college student and i was still late as usual. Classic me! 😭🤣But to be fair, it wasn’t entirely my fault. The salon has to do with it too.

The Laude Dream. 


“Pag sinabi ko sigurong hindi ko naman talaga goal noon na gumraduate with Latin Honors, madaming hindi maniniwala. Madaming magsasabi na pa-humble pa ako, na ang dami kong arte, etc. But you know what? Wala na akong pake. Sabi nga ng kaibigan kong si Maegan, ‘…Pibabalik ed si ka da agda ak met kabat.’ Hindi naman talaga yan kasama sa goals ko. Pagkapasok ko ng UP apat na taon na ang nakakaraan, wala akong kaplano-plano. Sabi ko pa noon, I’ll just go with the flow. Gusto ko, tahimik lang buhay ko. Walang expectations. Walang pressure. Nadala na kasi ako sa nangyari sa akin noong hayskul. Nasaktan ako noon sa totoo lang. Nasaktan ako hindi dahil sa kahit na anong award na hindi ko nakuha. Nasaktan ako dahil alam kong na-disappoint ko ang mga magulang ko kahit hindi nila sinabi sa akin.

First sem, first year college. Hindi ako college/university scholar. Ni hindi ko nga alam na may ganun pala. Nagulat nalang ako nung second sem kasi first time ko yun. Dun ko lang din nalaman na may ganun pala. Umattend ako ng convocation nun kasama sina Iris at Michael. Ang saya pala nun. Na-enjoy ko yun kasi nagkaroon ako ng chance na makakamay sila Sir Nimreh (fangirl alert haha) at makapagselfie at picture kasama sina Ma’am Mendoza at Ma’am Mai (na favorite ko since Pol Sci 11 happened). Pero alam niyo ang pinakanakapagpasaya sa akin ng sobra? Birthday ko kasi kinabukasan nun kaya balak ko talagang umuwi ng araw din ng Convocation. Umuwi ako dala yung certificate na nakuha ko. Nagulat pa mga magulang ko nun kasi hindi naman nila alam na may awarding o certificate na ganun. Balak ko kasi talaga silang i-surprise. Yung reaction nila nun, yun yung reaksyon na hindi ko nakuha nung gumraduate ako nung hayskul. Yun yung reaksyon na matagal kong hinintay na makita ulit.

Na-receive ko yung pinakaunang certificate ko sa college pero no pressure pa rin. No expectations. Sige lang. Go lang. Tapos tuwing may Convocation na darating, lagi pa naming sinasabi ni Iris nun na a-attend kami kasi sayang tapos baka last na kasi namin yun haha.

Matapos ang ilang certificates at Convocations, hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano ba cut-off nung grades para mag-laude. Na-curious nalang din ako nung lagi na akong tinatanong ng ibang kakilala at blocmates kung laude standing daw ba ako. Lagi ko pang sagot noon, “Ay hindi ko alam. Paano ba malalaman?” Lol. Tapos ayun nga. Nalaman ko yung cut-off grade. 

Nitong fourth year ko rin talaga parang na-feel yung pressure. Na-motivate kasi talaga ako nung in-advice ako ni Sir Ruel (Caricativo) nun. I-homerun ko na raw kasi last year naman na. Kayang-kaya na raw. Tapos nalaman ko rin kasi na pag graduation, hindi pala makakaakyat ng stage yung mga magulang. Makakaakyat lang sila pag laude ka. Yun yung naging driving force ko talaga. Gusto ko kasing mapaakyat ng stage mga magulang ko. Alam ko kasing deserve nila yun. Deserving silang umakyat ng stage kasi pinaghirapan nila lahat ng to.

For the past years, lagi kong sinasabi sakanila na wag silang mag-expect. Nitong kalagitnaan ng last sem nalang din nila nalaman na laude standing ako. Wala akong nakuhang pressure mula sa kanila. Ako lang din namimressure sa sarili ko minsan sa totoo lang. 😅 Pero worth it naman. Worth it kasi kasama ko silang tumanggap nung diploma ko. Worth it kasi, nasusuotan ulit ako ng medalya ng Papa ko (peyborit niya kasi yun lol). Kaya naman, Mama at Papa, para sainyo talaga ‘to! Thank you for being my number 1 motivators and supporters! Mahal ko kayo! 💕”

IMG_1279The Squad That Sablays Together, Stays Forever.

When it was decided that I’ll attend UP Baguio for college, my original plan was to transfer to Diliman after year. But then, it’s really hard to give up things such as friendship. I got to know these four wonderful people and the rest is history. “This friendship is one of the reasons why I chose to stay.” To Iris, Justine, Pia, and Gleney, thank you for putting up with me and thanks for the four amazing years! Our friendship is one of the reasons why I had a blast this college!
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Justine.
“My thesis partner, partner in papers, reports, in everything. Sure thing, you’ve been a very responsible and reliable partner in acads. 😀 But the more important reason why I’d like to thank you is for being such a great friend these past four years. Mumshie, beshy, bro, brad, thank you for everything. You made my everyday in college easier and crazier. Kahit minsan nakakapagod na, nilulookforward ko na lang sa pagpasok e yung kadaldalan at harutan nating lima nila Iris, Pia at Gleney. Way to go, brotha. Galingan sa law school. IF EVER tuluyan ko nang talikuran ang pagla-law, ikaw nalang din tumupad nung plano ko noon para sa sarili kong yan. 😂 I know that you can do it. I am rooting for you. Make us, make me, even prouder of you. I’ll be waiting for that day that I could get to call you Atty. Justine Manuel! You go gurl! 😘”

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Iris.
“My homerun buddy. Thank you for the friendship and for listening every time I need someone to talk to. Maraming Salamat kasi naging karamay kita sa LAHAT. Totoo nga yung sinasabi nila na mas masaya yung “tagumpay” kung may kasama ka. Mas masaya yung makatanggap ng awards ng hindi nag-iisa. I am so happy that I experienced those victorious moments with you. Naging mas madali rin yung paghohomerun kasi nandyan ka na pwede kong makausap palagi. You were there to serve as both a reminder (lalo na every time ang tamad ko at panay pagbaba/uwi nalang nasa utak ko 😂) and a motivator. Thank you sa mga mababaw na usapan. Thank you sa pagdamay sa mga kaharutan at landi moments (this goes both sides 😂). Salamat dahil naging mabuti (at baliw) kang kaibigan. Yung sinasabi ko sayo ha. You choose and do what will make you happy. Fighting! 😘”
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Jessa.
“Thank you for all the love and support. Thank you for speaking up for me every time I cannot do it myself. I appreciate it every time you’re the one who breaks my problems to our parents. Thank you for being there always. I am sharing this achievement to you. Just like what I told you, always remember that no matter what happens, we are a team. There will always be those narrow-minded people, worse even our own relatives, who won’t stop comparing us. But mind you, I don’t care. I hope you won’t and don’t either. Continue chasing your dreams your own way. I’ll support you no matter what. Remember that. 💕”


And then, everything became Nayser

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When I got to know you.

“One of the unforgettable detours. Abalang ko binmato ak la. Andi ni manaya.” Tuloy Pa Rin pala. ❤️️

I wouldn’t change anything when it comes to the decisions that I have made (that concerns you). You definitely became a big part of my college life. You taught me things and you’ve proven me wrong. If I would be given the chance to turn back time, I’d choose to fall all over again. No regrets.
Thank you for the happy memories and life lessons. And thank you for making my heart beat that fast again. ❤️️

PS. Sorry for “snubbing” you the first time (I can’t still remember it tho 😂). But as what I’ve told you, I’m not really a snob! Hope I proved you wrong, too. 😉

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The End of My Road to Sablay.

Finally, after a couple of detours, I already reached the end of my Road to Sablay. I will surely come up with plans for my future, but I’d still be willing to take detours, for sure. 🌻💕
Maraming salamat, UP! 
To God Be All The Glory! 😇


Signing Off,

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That Girl

I was once that girl who wanted to be everyone’s center of attention.
I was once that girl who always wanted to be number 1.
I was once that girl who could easily trust anyone.
I was once that girl who thought that all people around me could be my friends.
I was once that girl who always chose to love no matter what.
I was once that girl who was patient and fearless when it comes to the guy she loves.
I was once that girl who got her heart broken.
I was once that masochist girl.
I was once that girl who got hurt so bad.
I was once that girl who was eaten by her insecurities.
I was once that girl who lost her confidence.
I was once that girl who questioned her existence and importance non-stop.
I was that girl who once lost her self.
Yes, I WAS that girl. I was that girl but I chose to leave that girl behind and rebuild myself to this girl, young lady rather, that I AM today.

Before, I always seek for attention. I loved being on the center of the stage. I loved hearing compliments and praises from others. I loved the attention that other people are giving me. I was blinded by that habit. I kept on striving and joining all clubs and organizations and competitions as much as possible. I wanted and joined each and every single activity when I get and was given the chance to. I didn’t stop. I was never contented. I wanted to get everything. I wanted to be on top. I grew up and lived every single day to be on top. And where did it get me?

It led me to my “greatest” downfall…so far (tho i don’t and never wanted another one, I know that it isn’t impossible to have one again so i am only preparing myself to all these possibilities). While it was true that I’ve earned a couple of achievements because of my passion and determination of being on top, while it was true that I had my parents so proud of each and one of these achievements, while it was true that people around me kept on complimenting me, I also knew that time that I had also earned a bunch of haters. Haters who keep on trash talking me. People who disguised and called themselves my friends but backstab me all the time. People who had always watched every single move I do. People who hated me that they always wait and hope for a mistake coming from me.

No one ever wanted that. It wasn’t easy. I wasn’t happy obviously. But what made it all worse was when I disappointed and failed the expectations of my parents. Papa, specifically. I never wanted anything else then but be on top but then I failed. That got me so broken for who knows how long. It bled me into tears for who knows how many times. I fell and it was never easy to stand up again and keep my chin up. I wanted too much attention and that caused my downfall.

Before, I thought everyone is a friend. If you talk to THAT GIRL in the past, she’d probably make and consider you her friend right in that moment. The younger me could easily trust anyone. When she considers you her friend, she means it. She’ll be loyal to you and be supportive. She will be your haters’ hater. That was me years ago. I thought all friends are true friends. I never thought that anyone could be a fake one. Worse, I never thought that the people you considered your best friend for ages could betray and hurt you so damn hard for other people. I never thought that a best friend could leave you hanging and join those maarteng girls of a clique on hating you and bitching around. This one for sure is one of the most devastating, heartbreaking and life-changing events in my life. When the people who I considered my best friends betrayed me, I started doubting everyone else. It even put me to that point in my life that my classmates considered me as one of their silent-type classmates (WHICH IS VERY FREAKIN SURPRISING WHEN YOU KNEW ME BEFORE THE BETRAYAL HAPPENED AND WHEN YOU KNOW ME TODAY). Worse? Starting that day, I started having trust issues and I started not believing on labeling others my “best friend” anymore. This is also the reason why I get easily conscious and hates it so damn much everytime I catch anyone backstabbing me. Backstabbing btches are my pet peeves. Especially when you call yourselves my friends. Shame on you!

Before, I loved that guy so damn much that I made things I never thought I could and would do. Being on a crazy and hyped crowd while supporting him on a pageant? Being on-stage is quite normal to me that time but being their with him while he was singing? I should’ve lost my mind. Knowing that the news might reach to my parents’ knowing, I so damn risked it. Not minding what those other students might think and say about their club/org President and Student Council representative being on the crowd/stage while he was singing and playing the guitar, I risked it. To support him (That was such a big deal for that younger me who was always thinking about her image and her being on top).

Hearing girls on the hallway giggling because of him, damn he knew how jealous I could get but I always ignore such thing. When that girl from SPA class asked to have a picture with him and stayed with him and his friends in that event in Leisure Coast while I needed to go home already because I have an exam the next day, he knew how mad I was because I thought he was flirting with her. Tangina ang daming lumalandi sayo ang sakit pero hinayaan ko na kasi sinasabi mo namang wala ka namang pakialam sakanila. I neglected all those jealousy (he’d say not really. Okay, not really but you see the point) and pain that those girls are causing me. Nakakainis kasi kaya nilang maglandi tapos ako hindi kasi nga may “reputasyon” akong iniingatan (lol) at takot ako sa mga magulang ko. But when he broke his promise that he’ll wait for me and he started a relationship with that girl he told me that he doesn’t even liked? TANGINA ANG SAKIT.  Here’s the start of all the craps and changes I’ve felt and experienced.

I didn’t know that loving could be that painful. So it was all true. It was depressing. It was self-degrading. My heart got so broken and it was so damn painful. It was painful that I even lost myself. I didn’t realize that while loving him all those years, I was already losing myself along the way. When he broke his promise years ago, I knew that I lost it. For years that promise was the only thing that I could hold onto. Yun nalang yung pinanghahawakan ko e tapos nawala pa. Wala na. I felt depressed that i started feeling so insecure. Tangina! Yung babaeng walang ginawa kung hindi gawin lahat para maging number 1, yung babaeng walang ginawa kung hindi ingatan yung “image at reputasyon” niya, na-insecure! All the confidence that I’ve gained for years while I was growing up was lost when he shattered me. Going back to these things in the past made me realize now that DAMN I REALLY HAD A DEPRESSION WAY BACK!

That hurt eventually led to anger. Because of the anger that I was feeling against him, I started changing. Since then, I kept doing the things I knew I he won’t like. I started cursing. I started wearing shorts. I started binge eating chips. And who knows what else. But you know what’s more maddening? Leche naman. Ipagpapalit mo na nga lag ako sana dun nalang sa mas maganda at hindi jejemon. Nakakainsulto e. LMAO! But I’m a bit serious about this (BITCH HERE PLEASE, IKR).

That ‘devastating’ heartbreak indeed has changed me — both in a good and in a bad way I guess. It was where all has started. Yes, I let myself cry and cry until there’s no more tears coming out from my eyes. I let myself show all the anger I was feeling until I got tired. I was changing to revenge. I was changing for him until I reached that point when I realized and started to change not for him anymore, nor for anyone else, but for me. I chose to grow up. I chose to be happy. And I never and won’t regret that ever.

Life showed me that having all the attention, fame and power in your hands is indeed empowering. It would bring you the pride, the confidence, even the drive to try and do harder. But aside from this, I taught me an important lesson: Contentment. To be contented on what we have is what would bring us happiness. Even self-fulfilment. It’s not all about the attention, the fame, and the power. I also realized that there will always be those haters. I guess it’s inevitable. I am not saying that you should be affected by them or let them control you but what I am trying to say is it sucks living knowing that there are a lot of people out there who’ll hate you just because you are succeeding. If attention, fame, and power would gain me more haters than friends, then no thanks. I’d rather live peacefully and happily. I was living this way this college and I think, I am happier now than when I was in high school. Feeling low key and it felt refreshing! I live my college life the opposite way I lived my HS life and it felt great! I don’t want anyone anymore to hate me just because I am on top. I am not saying though that I’ll stop. Nobody can stop me. Nobody can stop this fire from burning. I’ll do whatever I wanna do to be happy and successful and haters won’t have a say on it. THIS FIRE WILL BURN YOUR INSECURITIES, BITCHES! Yes, i’ve changed and it turned out that I became bitchier. And i still hate the insecurities! Suit yourselves. But please, please help yourselves overcome those insecurities as well. It will bring you no good. #preach

As for friendship and trusting others, I also realized something. I learned that I don’t need twenty, hundreds, thousands, or millions of friends. I could just have ten for a lifetime. I could live with it. What’s important for me is that they’re real ones. Life showed me too that QUALITY OVER QUANTITY is indeed true and very applicable. You want to become my friend, you are welcome into my life. But once you betray or backstab me, don’t expect that you’ll get my trust again. And you are also very welcome to exit and leave my life. I won’t stop you. I only keep diamonds not trash.

Loving could bring a whirlwind of emotions, you know. It hurt and broke me bigtime, but i never regretted it. No matter how painful the past was, I will still keep and choose love. Always (hopeless romantic in the house, ladies and gents!). Love taught me a lot of things and even bring me to where I am today. He told me before that I deserved someone better. That time, I got angry at him. I even asked myself who he is to tell who I deserve. But then I realized that maybe he is right. I don’t deserve him. He doesn’t deserve me. And i deserve someone better. I’ll also admit that because of him, I lay low from spreading my wings further because I got scared that maybe guys are really egoistic and they don’t want a girl achiever. But then this poem that I’ve read recently struck and shook me. It says,

Dear Woman,

Sometimes
You’ll just be too much woman.
Too smart,
Too beautiful,
Too strong.
Too much of something
That makes a man feel like less of a man,
Which will start making you feel like you have to be less of a woman.

The biggest mistake you can make
Is removing jewels from your crown
To make it easier for a man to carry.
When this happens, I need you to understand,
You don’t need a smaller crown —-
You need a man with bigger hands.

Michael E. Reid

I was once that girl who wanted to be everyone’s center of attention.
Now, I am this girl who loves the attention, love, and support coming from my loved ones and am waiting for that one guy who’ll make me the center of his world. 
I was once that girl who always wanted to be number 1.
Now, I am this girl who learned to be contended on what she have but doesn’t and won’t stop of becoming better at the same time.
I was once that girl who could easily trust anyone.
Now, I am this girl who is careful in giving her trust and loyalty to other people. 
I was once that girl who thought that all people around me could be my friends.
Now, I am this girl who believes that I don’t need a lot of fake friends. What I need are just few real friends. I value friendship more now than ever in my life. 
I was once that girl who always chose to love no matter what.
Now, I am still that girl who chooses love less the “no matter what” tho… 
I was once that girl who was patient and fearless when it comes to the guy she loves.
… Because now, I am giving myself limitations. Now, this girl will try to leave something for herself as well. 
I was once that girl who got her heart broken.
Now, I am this girl who has a scarred but a stronger heart.
I was once that masochist girl.
Now, I am and will try to be the smart girl no matter what. #UtakAtPuso
I was once that girl who got hurt so bad.
Now, I am this happy girl who is trying to ready herself so damn hard for whatever life might throw at her in the future.
I was once that girl who was eaten by her insecurities.
Now, I am this girl who hates insecurities!
I was once that girl who lost her confidence.
Now, I am this girl who is confident that she’s smarter and tougher.
I was once that girl who questioned her existence and importance non-stop.
Now, I am this girl who still seeks for her purpose but knows at the same time that she has a place in this world. 
I was that girl who once lost her self.
Now, I am this girl who fell but was able to stand up again and found herself on a happier place. I am this girl who will continue on living the life that God has prepared and planned for her. I am this girl who will continue on dreaming, striving, and spreading her wings. 

Yes, I WAS that girl. But now, I am this girl who is more passionate and determined more than ever and THIS GIRL WILL KEEP HER FIRE ON BURNING. 

I will end this post with a note that I wrote for myself that I also want to share with you:

You weren’t made to be somebody else’s shadow. You weren’t made to fit in. You were born to stand out and be who you are and who you wanted to be. Please don’t settle for mediocre. Don’t settle for less. XOXO

 

Twenty-First 🎈

I didn’t have birthday blues and i think that’s lit! 🔥 Oh the things that you do to me Gab! 😂 Birthday blues? I had tons of it before my day and I think that helped. I already consumed all of it before and nothing was left during the 28th. Haha! But I believe that what blocked those blues from coming to me were the people around me that special day so THANKS, EVERYONE! Love you all! ❤

I woke up earlier than usual and that was the best decision I’ve made that day. Haha! There’s just something about waking up early that could bring all those positive vibes ya know. I woke up early and cooked oatmeal for breakfast so even though the day has only started, I already felt productive and that made me happy and feel accomplished! Lol! I also decided not to ditch my classes that day because I realized how patapon would it be to start my new year missing my classes and all that stuff. That’s so irresponsible and I do not want to be that irresponsible and lazy arse throughout the year. Haha!

So I went to uni and attended my first class. It felt weird to walk on the hallway and bumped with the people I know but who doesn’t knew that I was celebrating my birthday that day. It didn’t offend me though. I mean, I felt that “awww he/she doesn’t know” feels but I didn’t really let them get into me badly. It even made me smile and laugh inside because I was imagining how would they feel once they knew about it. Lol!

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THE COLLEGE SQUAD

During my first class, nobody greeted me since I don’t actually know majority of my classmates. They were juniors!!! I already expected that. I mean, i expected Gino to greet me but then he was absent so yeah. (Oh wait. I almost forgot that Mai greeted me! Hihi) I seated there for one and a half hours acting like it was just like those ordinary and boring days. Ma’am Lelet even started the class with a surprise quiz! Ang sayang pa-birthday! Haha! When I entered my next class, that’s when I started feeling the birthday feels. I saw a bouquet of pink roses on my desk courtesy of Justine. You never failed of amusing me and making me feel grateful of having you as a friend, bruh! I know that you’d be reading this so I want you to know how I appreciated the flowers. I didn’t expect anything from you but you surprised me knowing how I feeL so upset the days before so you made a way to cheer me up. Thank you so much. Love you! 

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Mass at Baguio Cathedral, of course!

After that class, i’ve decided not to attend my last class for the day anymore since Jessa has already arrived. Plus, hindi kawalan yung class na yun. Sayang lang oras ko dun. Haha! Since Iris and Pia still have classes, it was only my housemates who ate the pancit and shanghai (courtesy of paps 😊) during lunch. Jessa and I left the house after to go to the Cathedral and roam around Session Road. At around 3pm, we went back to UP to fetch Pia and Iris and then they joined me at home. An hour or so, Manuel followed us after an interview that he just took. So they spent the rest of their afternoon eating and celebrating with me at home. It was just a simple celebration but it made me happy nonetheless.

I spent the rest of the day/night with Jessa. We went out again and roamed around. We ate at Geney’s Ramyeon House and went to Under the Tree Book Cafe to chill after. She surprised me with cupcakes and her gift. Without Jessa at Baguio that day, I really think that it wouldn’t be that great. For sure, Id feel so homesick and all. Thank God, she was there. Thank God He blessed me with a very supportive and loving sister that would really make an effort just to make me happy. Thank you for being the sister that I am so blessed of having, Jessa! I love you. 

Looking at how I spent the day, it was really pretty normal. It wasn’t that extravagant but I had a blast. It turned out better than I have expected that I don’t have any more reasons to complain. It was a blast because of all the appreciation and the greetings that I received. It felt so great to walk on the hallway with people greeting you a happy birthday. I’ve missed that. That’s definitely one of those things that I missed because I celebrated the past few birthdays before this year’s at home. I mean, it felt great receiving personal birthday greetings — not only greetings via phone calls and texts and Facebook or other social media sites. It felt great waking up and receiving calls and texts from my relatives and closest friends.  It felt great being remembered. It felt great that the people I was with in Baguio during that day made an effort and made time to make me feel special and join me in celebrating. It felt great that even though I was kilometers away from them, my friends from Pangasinan still remembered me and made me feel appreciated (Hi especially to le grade school friends! 😊).  It felt great that I have my family especially my parents and sibs (Tristan also made me very happy that day) who never failed of reminding me that they got my back and they love me. It felt great that just when I thought that I don’t have anything more to ask for that day, God has surprised me with another blessing. While roaming around SM that night, Iris called me to let me know that there was an invitation again from an international honor society — the first invite came from Phi Kappa Phi and this time, it was Pi Gamma Mu (anyways, i am planning on doing a separate post for these ones). It was a perfect birthday gift, indeed! The day ended so well and I slept with a smile on my face, feeling so overwhelmed of all the birthday greetings and messages that I had to reply before sleeping. THANK YOU FOR THE PAST TWO DECADES, PAPA GOD! THANK YOU FOR BLESSING ME WITH THESE WONDERFUL PEOPLE WHO MAKE THIS LIFE WORTH LIVING. 💖

You May Not Be My First Love…

An open letter I’ve decided to write because the message I gave him when he asked me to give him one in front of the other guests yesterday wasn’t really that personal. Plus I was stoked. I wasn’t prepared and the emcee (his cousin) just called me while I was eating. 😭😂

Since I knew and felt what I’ve felt for Austine few years ago, that’s when I realized that it wasn’t really you who I fell in love with first. All those years I thought it was you but then I realize I was wrong. You’re not the first love I thought you were but you were that special guy who taught and made me feel a lot of firsts. You will always be that guy who I will never regret liking and getting hurt by. You were worth it. And I hope you know that.

Yesterday, looking at you while your parents and sister were greeting you and giving their messages to you made me happy for a reason. There was that feeling of happiness and pride. I am so proud of the man you have become. I have known you for fourteen years and that made me feel honored and pleased. I am so happy that I saw how you became the man you are today. I am so happy that in that 14 years, I got the chance to know you more and become a part of your life.

We met during first grade. From being strangers, we became classmates and suddenly friends. We became friends because we didn’t have any choice since we were stuck with each other. Haha! Just kidding. We compete outside the school together sometimes individually but usually as a team. Inside the school we were competitors which didn’t really seem like to because we treated ourselves as more of friends. From being friends, our closeness got us infatuated to each other and you introduced me to that new feeling. Here enters that many firsts that you made me feel and experience. Fast forward, we ended up not liking each other romantically anymore and just became best friends at some point in time without any verbal agreement and we just found ourselves as each other’s confidant. I don’t really know how that happened but I also think that it isn’t impossible because we’re comfortable with each other’s company. We became and remained good friends since then. We remained friends even we sort of parted in high school because we were in different class sections and lived our own worlds. We still remained friends even now that we’re in college because there are just this string that refuses to be cut and make our paths always cross with each other — we’re both attending college in Baguio and I think that’s cool. Lol! We remained friends and I am so grateful for that.

I couldn’t feel happier of how we ended up. “Romantic love ruins friendship,” that’s what others say and I am thankful that ours didn’t end up that way. I am happy that we started as friends and ended up as still good friends. If we didn’t have that strong foundation, then I think I wouldn’t be here writing this post about you right now. I might be like those other girls who didn’t show up yesterday because they are bitter and couldn’t forgive you yet because of the pain you’ve caused them. Haha! I am just so grateful because just the thought of this 14 years of friendship is very overwhelming. Gahd, I am so proud of us! Haha!

You are one of the smartest, truest, and most principled people I’ve ever known. I like how you lecture me every time I become stubborn and stupid. I like how you give me blunt advices. You are one of those who gave me the best advices in this lifetime and I don’t think I already had the chance to tell you that directly. I like how you present yourself with the life principles you adhere to. I am so happy that you have grown from that egoistic little boy to a still egoistic man but already knows what he’s doing and standing up for.

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You already saw me in my happiest and even my saddest moments. Thank you for sharing with me most of my happiest and victorious moments in life.  And thank you also for being there when I needed a friend the most when I got my heart broken and when I couldn’t pull my shts together. Thank you for sharing every turning point in my life with me. You may not be my first love but you were the very first (in grade school) and oldest (not really referring to age but it may also apply lol) friend I have and that matters alot to me. Your birthdate may also doesn’t have a permanent place in the calendar that it only appears every four years since you were born but remember that you’ll always have a permanent place in my life (I couldn’t speak for the rest of our grade school friends for this one but I want you to know that I am willing to give you that place in my life you’re occupying right now to you forever. Damn, isn’t that sweet? Lmao). You may not be my first love but you will always have this special role and part in my life. You may not be my first love but I knew in that particular moment yesterday — when I was looking at you smiling — that you will always have this special place in my heart. Again, Happy 21st Birthday in advance and hey, don’t let that smile fade. It’s beautiful. 😊

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A Christmas Day Well Spent

This year’s Christmas Day just like any other of the family’s Christmas Day in the past few years started with the family’s gathering for a meal at midnight. The whole fam just shared a meal and a lot of chatting!

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At midnight with these boys-next-door cousins mewls!

 

After eating, gift opening, and the long hours of chatting, each and everyone started then to prepare to sleep since it is passed 2 am already. While everyone at home’s getting ready to sleep, I was preparing to give my present to the parentals. I was waiting for the time to come the entire night!

When the parentals were already in their room, I then went there and give my present. I really don’t have money to buy Christmas gifts this year so I really hoped that my graduation photos would be enough. Haha!

I was so thrilled watching them excitedly opening the gifts. They keep on asking what it is. The two frames were wrapped with Christmas wrapper, bubble wrap and folders so it took them a minute or so until they finally saw what they actually are. The first word that came from my mom’s mouth was, “Wow,” and then she kissed me. I could also see that smile on the face and in the eyes of Papa. I feel so happy and fulfilled seeing them that happy. I cannot explain how fulfilling seeing my parents that way. They even went out of their room and went to my tito and tita who also stayed here at home for tonight and let them see the photos. They hugged and kissed me and won’t stop congratulating me. I feel so flattered and happy. I am not just happy because of their complements. What makes me happier is their reaction. All of them. AAAAH!!!! ANG SAYAAAA! ANG FULFILLING TALAGA! That is why I sleep with  smiling lips and and a happy heart. ❤

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The fam went out today for Christmas and Papa’s birthday celebration as well. We went to the mall to have a lunch date. We also stroll around for an hour or so. And just like every Christmas, it was already a family tradition that we go and watch a movie so me and the sibs had a movie date treat by mom. The parentals didn’t join us anymore because they still have to do the grocery and cook because Papa will have visitors in the afternoon. Jessa, Tristan and I had watched Vince, Kath, and James and it was definitely a feel-good movie. We enjoyed it! (I will have a separate entry for a brief review of the movie later) After watching the movie, we then decided to go home already and join the family in celebrating the rest of the day! It is indeed a merry and happy Christmas! It is a Christmas day well spent. MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE! 🎄 And Happy Birthday, Jesus and Papa! 🎉😘

This Joao and the rest of the Boyband PH

It actually started because of boredom. Vacation got me so chill at home that there were times and days like this one that I have nothing to do so I just lie down on my bed all day long in front of my lappy (and yes I could do this the entire day lol), and browse my social networking accounts like Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and Youtube. That is why I had the chance to fangirl again and keep up with what’s happening in PH TV. 😂

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I got interested with Pinoy Boyband Superstar because when my vacation just started, it was one of the FEW shows that I have watched. I wasn’t really a fan but I was able to watch the very first episode of the show. It was only the first episode and the last two (the finals) that I have watched before. I watched the Finals because of Neil Murillo. This kid got me in awe of his audition performance that I even downloaded his video. I was rooting for him to win that night so I watched and saw the other finalists. The competition and all of the guys were interesting that even when Neil already got the first spot of becoming a member of the boyband, I still looked forward to the announcement of the other winners the next night. And I must say that Ford Valencia and Russell Reyes were really good. Tony Labrusca could also be a good choice. BUT who really got my attention after that night was Joao Constancia. Yes, he wasn’t that good in singing but damn he’s so hot and appealing! 😍 That was when I started fangirling again after quite some time now. I was stalking Joao since yesterday but while doing so, I couldn’t also stop myself from admiring the other members of Boyband PH including Tristan Ramirez. They were all charming and good to watch that I didn’t realize that I actually marathoned and watched all of the episodes of the Pinoy Boyband Superstar. Damn! 😂

These guys made me so occupied these past few days and I am happy that we actually have these talented guys in the PH entertainment industry. Social climbers and socialites might say and judge how “jejemon” fangirls like me are but who the hell cares! I mean, this is talent! These guys got what it takes to be artists. I just can’t understand why and how people could easily judge others calling them jejemon without even trying to understand and really know who these guys are and what they have. One more thing, hindi ka-jeje-han to e. Fortunately, I just know how to appreciate “talent.”

I just hope that the other young Filipinos out there learn how to appreciate the talent of our fellas. We must appreciate OPM. I don’t understand why there are others who are so “diring-diri” of admiring OPM and Filipino talents that they choose Hollywood and Kpop instead. I don’t have anything against Hollywood and Kpop culture. In fact, I also admire and idolize them but what I’m trying to say is, if we can do that — supporting other’s culture and talents — why can’t we do that to our own? Yung iba naman mga social climber at pa-sosyal lang that’s why they are so proud and outspoken when it comes to their Hollywood idols and stuff! (Wow, galit na galit, Jel? 😂).

But seriously, I know where the others are coming from. I mean, yes there are those Filipino celebrities and music that really suuuuuck but  for Pete’s sake, let’s give these guys a chance because they deserve it. Their talents deserve it. One more thing, to ABS CBN, most especially ASAP, why don’t  you people let them perform live? Puro na lang lipsync. KAYANG MAG-LIVE NIYANG MGA YAN! Na-train sa PBS ano ba! Wag igaya kina Kathryn Bernardo and the others! Charot. I am not hating, I am just saying. 😁

So because these guys already got me and I am a fan, let me make this entry be more about them. Let’s start with this young kiddo (oh my God I feel so old) who became the reason why I actually got to know the group.

NEIL MURILLO.

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He’s the youngest in the group and he was also the first chosen member of Boyband PH. I think what people really saw and sees in him is his masa appeal. Compared to the four, he’s the one who has the least confidence when performing. But as what everyone says, he definitely improved a lot. Plus, I love his voice. I really loved his version of Sam Concepcion’s Mahal na Mahal. That’s definitely my fave in all of the performances he had in PBS. Plus, that I Swear cover with Russell and Ford.

 

RUSSELL REYES.

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Ang pogi ng panga jusq haha

To be honest, Russell impressed so much during the finals. That cover of Adele’s All I Ask was superb! That was the first time I saw and heard him sing and he got me already. But what made me LOVE him was his personality. At first, I cringed when I watched his audition. I got disappointed because of that arrogant aura he carries with him but after watching all the PBS videos, his performances, and above all, the behind-the-scenes and kiligity videos, damn I loved this man since then. After Joao, he’s next on my list. Lol! He is just so funny and adorable! I also saw determined he was during the entire competition that he started learning speaking Tagalog. His rendition of Jay R’s Bakit Pa Ba was also commendable! He’s known to be the one who has the most powerful vocal in the group. He’s also charming most especially when he is singing! Nag-iiba yung aura ‘pag nagpe-perform! At yung panga bes, iba! Haha! Antukin din siya. Kung saan-saan natutulog, mapasahig di pinapalagpas. Haha!

 

FORD VALENCIA.

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I see him serious. Maybe because he’s one of the most mature among the guys in the group. But sure thing, when you hear this guys sing, you’ll love him. Ang ganda ng boses. SOBRA! He can dance, too. A total package. I could see him a soloist, in fact. But he definitely suits the boy band as well. I love all of his performances because he’s really good but what I love the most were his covers of Mariah Carey’s Angel’s Cry (that was so heart melting and emotional), Without You (sobrang galing niya dito!!!), and I Swear with Neil and Russell (ang ganda ng blending ng boses nilang tatlo). Si Ford din yung tipong binoboyfriend. Harot! Hahahaha.

 

TRISTAN RAMIREZ.

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I didn’t see this one coming, to be honest. While watching the finale, it was Tony Labrusca who I was rooting for for the fifth spot. That’s why when they announced him as the fourth member (with Joao and Tony still not being called out), I cringed. I could still remember in fact, that me and my sibs were bashing him and all. But after my stalking and marathon of PBS, this guy has earned my respect. Though until now I still feel like Tony deserves his spot, I already accepted the fact that this guy won instead and people can’t do anything with it. Sad thing’s that there were a lot, and when i say lot, sure thing it WAS A LOT, of mean comments about his winning during the finale of PBS and i feel sorry and sympathizes with him. What made me accept Tristan being in the group is his personality. He is such a humble person. He’s also funny. And I believe that the group needs someone like him. Watch that GGV episode with these guys as Vice’s guests and you’ll understand why Tristan should be given a chance to prove himself. 😉

 

JOAO MICAEL VILLANUEVA CONSTANCIA.
(Hindi halatang siya ang bias ko hahaha)

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Joao is the fifth member of the Boyband PH. He might also be the weakest in vocals but damn this guy knows how to play the crowd and make the girls scream like crazy everytime he steps onstage in his ripped jeans. SUPER ripped jeans, to be exact! 😂
He was raised and lives in Macau and he is known to be a party person that’s why he’s dubbed as the “Party Prince of Macau” in PBS. His bad boy look and image is also completed by that lip ring he has and which he plays with every time he bites his lip (WHICH IS SUPER HAWT LMAO)! What also make a Joao Constancia a Joao Constancia, aside from those lip ring and ripped jeans are his hair style/cut and the handky you could find lying from the back pouch of his jeans. Joao has this charisma that would make the girls swoon. He might also not be as good as Russell and Neil and Ford in singing but he is a great dancer. I think he’s the best dancer in the group. A chic magnet. If Russell and Niel are said to be the voices of the boyband, Joao is definitely the face!

These guys are promising. This boy group is promising. Lez support BPH and OPM!!! 

 

 

 

Matapos ang Ilang Dekada, Nasaan na ang Hustisya?

Here’s an editorial article I wrote last November 10, 2016 regarding Marcos’ burial at the Libingan ng mga Bayani: 

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Nakapanglulumo at nakakagalit/nakagagalit ang naging huling desisyon at hatol ng Korte Suprema sa matagal nang nakabinbin na debate at isyu ukol sa pagpapalibing sa yumao at dating Pangulong Ferdinand E. Marcos sa tinaguriang Libingan ng mga Bayani (LNMB).

Nito lamang nakaraang Martes, ika-8 ng Nobyembre 2016, ay tuluyan na ngang naglabas ang Korte Suprema ng desisyon nila ukol sa pagpayag sa pagpapalibing kay Marcos sa LNMB. Sa botong 9-5 ay nanaig ang pakiusap ng Marcoses at ng kanilang mga taga-suporta na hayaan nang mailibing ang dating Pangulo sa naturang lugar.

Mula taong 1993 ay nakahimlay na ang labi ni dating Pangulong Marcos sa isang air-conditioned na museleo sa Ilocos Norte dahil sa loob ng humigit kumulang 25 taon, patuloy na umasa ang pamilya Marcos na darating ang araw na mabibigyan sila ng permiso na ilipat ito sa LNMB. Nabuksan lamang muli ang isyu ng pagpapalibing kay Marcos magmula nang tumakbo at manalo sa pagka-Pangulo si Pangulong Duterte. Matatandaan na sa gitna ng kampanya niya noon sa pakapangulo sa Ilocos Norte ay nangako siyang isa sa mga gagawin niya oras na maupo sa posisyon ay ang pagpapalibing kay dating Pangulong Marcos. Kaya naman noong ika-11 ng Hulyo, pormal nang iniutos ng pangulo sa Department of National Defense ang pagpapalibing kay Marcos sa LNMB.

Hindi naging madali ang pagresolba sa isyu na ito. Madaming protesta at rally ang naganap upang maipakita ang hindi nila pagsang-ayon sa desisyon ng pangulo kaya naman dumating sa puntong ang Kataas-taasang Hukuman ng Pilipinas (Korte Suprema) na ang nagdesisyon. Ngunit tulad din nang naging reaksyon sa pahayag ng pangulo, halo-halong emosyon, saloobin, at reaksyon din mula sa sambayanan ang namutawi nang lumabas ang desisyon ng Korte Suprema. Marami ang natuwa, lalong-lalo na ang mga kapamilya at tagasuporta ng pamilya Marcoses, ngunit hindi rin maikakaila ang hindi pagsang-ayon at galit ng marami sa ating mga kababayan. Hindi rin maikakaila na ang desisyong ipalibing si dating Pangulong Marcos sa Libingan ng mga Bayani ay nagpakita ng pagkakahati-hati ng mga Pilipino.

Nandigan si Pangulong Duterte na panahon na upang payagan at hayaang mailibing si Pangulong Marcos sa Libingan ng mga Bayani upang matapos at matuldukan na ang pagkakahati-hati ng mga Pilipino at ang alitan sa pagitan ng mga Aquino at Marcos at ng kanilang mga taga-suporta. Ayon sa Pangulo, ang pagpapalibing kay dating Pangulong Marcos ay kinakailangan natin upang makausad na at maging daan upang makamit ang tinatawag niyang “national reconciliation.” Nainiwala rin si Pangulong Duterte at ang iba pang sumasang-ayon sa naging desisyon ng Korte Suprema na karapat-dapat lamang talaga na mailibing ang dating Pangulo sa LNMB dahil iyon naman talaga ang layunin ng lugar —- ang maging himlayan ng mga yumaong pangalo at sundalong lumaban para sa bayan.

Kasama rin sa mga puntong isinaalang-alang ng Korte Suprema sa desisyon nila ay ang hindi pagkakaroon umano ng anumang batas na nagbabawal na ilibing si Marcos sa LNMB. Ayon naman kay Solicitor General Jose Calida, oras na rin na mailibing ang dating Pangulo sa makasaysayang LNMB lalo pa’t wala na rin naman daw “national trauma” mula sa nangyaring Martial Law noong panahon ng administrasyong Marcos. Patunay daw dito ang 14 milyong boto na nakuha ng anak ng dating pangulo na si Bongbong Marcos noong nakaraang eleksyon nang tumakbo siya sa pagka-bise presidente.

Ikinagalak man ng pamilya Marcos at ng Marcos’ loyalists ang naging hatol ng Korte Suprema, hindi natin maitatanggi at hindi rin tayo maaaring magbulagbulagan sa mga saloobin, hinanakit, at galit na bumuhos sa social media tulad ng Facebook at Twitter at sa mga protesta at rally na isinagawa ng anti-Marcos protesters at iba pang kababayan nating hindi sumasang-ayon sa naging desisyon ng Korte Suprema. Sa katunayan, dahil sa naging desisyon ng Korte Suprema ay mas nangibabaw pa ang pagkakahati-hati ng mga Pilipino, salungat sa hangarin ni Pangulong Duterte na tuldukan na ang pagkakahati-hating ito. Marami ang umalma at nagpakita ng pagkadisgusto sa pagpayag na mailibing na si Marcos sa LNMB.

Marami pa ring Pilipino ang naniniwala na hindi karapat-dapat na maging himlayan ng dating pangulo ang LNMB kahit pa man dati siyang sundalo at pangulo na nanilbihan sa bansa. Ayon sa iba, hindi sapat na dahilan ang mga ito upang payagan siyang mailibing sa LNMB lalo pa’t isa siyang diktador at maraming mamamayang Pilipino ang nagdusa at namatay sa ilalim ng kanyang administrasyon. Tulad nga ng ulat mula sa Amnesty International, mula nang ipatupad ni Marcos ang Martial law noong 1972, 70,000 na tao ang nakulong, 34,000 ang naabuso, at 3,240 ang namatay. Hindi lamang ito, marami rin ang iniulat na nawala na magpahanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin natatagpuan. Dahil sa mga kadahilanang ito ay marami ang hindi sumasang-ayon sa desisyon ng Korte Suprema. Marami pa rin ang patuloy na sumasalungat at lumalaban para sa hustisyang ilang dekada nang hinihintay ng marami lalo ng mga biktima at kaanak ng mga biktima ng Martial Law. Maraming hindi sumasang-ayon na mailibing sa Libingan ng mga Bayani si Marcos dahil kailanman ay hindi siya naging at magiging bayani sa mata ng karamihan lalo  na ng  mga nabiktima ng kamay na bakal. Madami rin ang naniniwala na isang malaking kahihiyan sa mga tunay na bayani at sa mismong lugar (LNMB) na mapabilang si Marcos sa kanila dahil isa siyang diktador, magnanakaw, at isa sa mga naging dahilan ng paghihirap ng marami sa ating mga kababayan.

Isa rin sa mga dahilan kung bakit hindi nararapat na mailibing si Marcos sa tinuturing nating Libingan ng mga Bayani ay dahil sa taliwas ito sa prinsipyong ipinaglaban ng mga kababayan nating nag-alsa upang maisagawa ang People Power Revolution sa EDSA na siyang nagpatalsik sa kanya. Tulad na nga rin ng sinasabi ng ilan, ano na lamang ang magiging tingin sa atin ng iba? Ano na lamang ang iisipin ng mga susunod na henerasyon na hindi alam ang tunay na nangyari noong Martial Law? Ano na lamang ang sasabihin ng ibang makakabasa at makakaalam ng kasaysayan ng ating bansa? Maaaring maging implikasyon ng desisyong at pangyayaring ito sa kasaysayan ng ating bansa ay ang katotohanang bibigyan natin ng “hero’s burial” ang isang taong napatalsik ng People Power Revolution dahil sa mga kasalanang nagawa niya sa bansa at sa mga mamamayang Pilipino. Nakakahiyang wala tayong paninidigan. Nakakahiya na sa nangyayari ngayon ay binabalewala at tila binabaon nalang din natin sa limot ang mga paghihirap at sakripisyong nagawa ng mga kapwa natin Pilipino noon.

Hindi lamang usapin ng pagpapatawad ang isyung ito. Paano makakapagpatawad ang mga nabiktima ng Martial Law kung ni kailanman ay hindi naman humingi ng tawad ang pamilya Marcos? Hindi lamang din ito usapin ng paglimot sa nakaraan at pagharap sa kinabukasan. Napakadaling sabihin para sa kanila. Ngunit paano naman ang mga kababayan nating ilang dekadang nagluksa? Paano naman makakalimot ang mga kaanak at kapamilya ng mga biktima ng Martial Law na hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin nakakakamit ng hustisya? Paano naman ang mga pamilya ng mga biktimang haggang ngayon ay naghihintay at umaasang matatagpuan pa nila ang mga nawawala nilang kaanak noong Martial Law kahit man lamang labi nila?

Hindi madali ang lumimot at magpatawad lalo na kung ganito ang kalakaran at sistema sa bansa. Ang isyung ito ukol sa pagpapalibing kay dating Pangulong Fedinand Marcos sa Libingan ng mga Bayani ay hindi lamang dito natatapos. Hindi ito simpleng usapin na dahil lamang sa nakapagdesisyon na ang Korte Suprema ay tapos na. Malaki rin ang implikasyon ng desisyong ito sa justice system ng ating bansa. Tulad nga rin ng sinasabi ng iba, nakakabahala na ang mismong justice system na ng bansa ang nagiging hadlang upang makamtan ng ating mga kababayan ang hustisyang matagal na nilang nais makamtan.